Chasing the Light & Porches

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I love photographing light and shadows thrown by the light. As it has been for most of the United States it is hot and humid. The two sunset photos were taken just after storms blew through. The sun coming through the trees was taken in the early morning as I headed to work. 

We have been having lots of visitors recently between family, friends and wildlife. We had great fun having cookouts and hanging out. We had such a busy social schedule,which is very unusual for both of us, that Mike asked if we could have a few quiet weekends. I need them too as I still have odds and ends to unpack or donate. I failed to take photos of the friends and family visiting but I did take photos of the tree frogs who crawl up our kitchen window to eat the bugs drawn by th light. I loved the butterfly who hung out with me on the porch. Even in high heat and humidity I love sitting on the porch. Especially at night listening to the crickets and cicadas. I love front porches! 

I wanted to take a moment and thank everyone who reads my blog. I was touched and awed by the sweet comments I have received in the past few weeks. I really appreciate it very much and am happy to be back to posting. 

Have a beautiful weekend. Namaste.

Sunflowers 

Storms & Sunsets


Over the past week we have had quite a few storms pass through as it has been very hot and humid. So far the storms have not been damaging where I live but the sunsets have been stunning.

Easton’s Plein Air Festival



Mike and I attended the adult quick draw competition this morning at Easton’s Plein Air Festival. The festival runs for little more than a week. I look forward to it every year. I enjoy watching the artists paint around the town and county during the week. I love perusing the paintings the artists made during the week but did not submit for judging. I especially like how we are treated. Everyone treats you as if you can afford to buy the paintings in spite of most being far outside of my affordability. One day maybe. I love finding paintings that I watched people paint during the week. I also like that during the quick draw anyone who pays $15 can enter and paint in a four block area of Easton, get the painting judged and put it up for sale if they wish. It was very hot and humid today and Mike was a champ tromping through town with me to view the art.

A Few of My Favorite Things in photos 

Peaceful Weekend & Stress Free Wedding Plans


It was a peaceful weekend. I’m counting down the days until I go home. It’s three. It’s been a long pet sitting job but a fairly easy one. The dogs are sweet, the neighbors not so much. Seems like each time I tried to sit on the porch someone was yelling and arguing. I don’t get it. Mike and I rarely yell. We have lived together over a year and have not had a telling match. I think I’ve raised my voice once or twice Mike has me beat in not yelling at all. I don’t know if this makes us normal or not but people seem surprised we don’t argue. I think it has more to do with meeting in middle age and appreciating one another. 

All the photos are from the farm. The gardens are just beautiful and I hardly tire of taking pictures of them. 

Our wedding plans are just about finalized and now we are just finishing paying off everything. People seem shocked we are not stressed about it. I don’t feel the need or desire to be stressed. We are doing everything our way-from no gifts, no cake and no crazy seating plans to me wearing a black dress with flowers on it. From my brother in law crafting a speech in Klingon to us keeping things simple. We think we know what we want to say and how the day will look. I have no desire to be a bridzilla or for either one of us to find it stressful. I think the most stressful thing we have to do is pick out six ice cream flavors. I think most of society has forgotten weddings are meant to be joyous and happy. I sure hope ours is next year. 

I hope you have a beautiful Tuesday and thank you to everyone who said they missed my photos and posts. I appreciate all who read my blog. Namaste.

My weekends in photos 

Finding My Peace Again


I shutdown almost completely recently. Emotionally and mentally I just went into a numb and crushing state of non feeling. My desire to write, photograph and participate in meaningful conversations was gone. I had gone into shutdown mode when a former coworker who had threatened violence towards me reappeared at work after a number of years. When I saw the person in the building, after I had been promised years ago by high level managers that the person is not permitted in the property, my heart and stomach feel to the floor. I felt the fear return and my emotions rose to their highest level of flight. The person stayed in the building for an hour never coming in contact with me. I wrote my boss and security about the incident and voiced my concern and opinion that no one was taking my issue seriously. The next day I was on the phone yelling at security and my boss who all told me the issue was mine to deal with and handle. I countered it was their job to provide a safe work environment and the former working was trespassing. After forty minutes of yelling and me telling security I had no faith in their abilities to deal with issues their solution was to provide me with an armed security person for two weeks. I found the solution to be a bandaid for serious security issues at work. Anyone can walk into our building with no one to stop them to even ask why they are there. I was uncomfortable with the armed person there for me, watching me and doing perimeter searches around the building. To deal with all of it I just shut down. I hardly took any photos except at the farm, I cried a lot and bickered a bit with Mike. I knew I wanted to write but how do you write about it. Mike was there for me every step of the way letting me talk or cry. He tried to get me to take photos and would suggest things to photograph. I dug deep within myself and with love and support of Mike and some good friends i think I really turned a corner when Mike said to me if you want to quit we will make it financially. I found my footing again. I did not want to let this person control how I feel or act. I decided I wanted to live my life as always on my terms. A new me emerged from this and for whatever reason I feel I had a spiritual lesson to learn if nothing else to prove to myself that I am strong, I am loved and I have a lot to share with the world be it large or small. To celebrate my taking back of myself I treated myself to a drastic but amazing haircut. I ran all over the farm this morning taking picture after picture. We finished work at the farm tonight and I told Mike I wanted to go into the garden again even though it was dusk to see what I could capture. I learned when my creativity or desire to create stood there is something wrong with my soul and I need to check in with myself. 

An Unexpected Peace

As I left the doctor’s office this morning after a myriad of tests I found the thing I feared the most over the past twenty five years has come to be and I was ok with it. My father had the worst asthma of anyone I have ever encountered. He was on many medications to try to control it but ultimately asthma took his life. I was there when he died and it has affected me greatly. Growing up I used to at his request pound on his back with my fists to try and break up the congestion. I was always frightened of hurting him with how hard he asked me to hit him but he always said it really helped. I would pound on his back until my arms wore out. We had no pets from the time I was seven due to dad’s reaction to them. We would have to wipe the shower dry after every use so no mold or mildew would develop. We had to dust or vacuum when he was out of town which was weekly with his job. My dad never let his asthma slow him down or prevent him from doing anything. He would attend my horse shows and stand outside the barn to watch as everything in the barn triggered his asthma. But he was at every single show I ever competed in. 

When the doctor diagnosed what I had suspected over the past few months was asthma I honestly had no real feeling about it either way. Growing up my father feared my younger sister and I would develop asthma. I have always been prepared for the possibility and am glad the doctor feels mine is very treatable. I had thought I would be more frightened of the asthma diagnoses but am at peace with it. Perhaps my dad helped prepare me for it all the years he had it and persevered. 

The two photos are out our bedroom window. I love watching the birds

Unpacking & Plans


I have been trying hard to finish unpacking the last of the odds and ends from the move but life as always gets in the way. Mike is out today helping his brother at his brother’s new home. I cleaned the kitchen and two of the three bathrooms. I figured out the one bookshelf I was stuck on did not have the right books in it and moved those books to the back bedroom. Crazy thinking I know but it now feels better. I just have one bedroom left and about eight boxes of things to donate including two boxes of clothes. I promised Mike I would have everything unpacked, donated and fixed up by the time his sisters visit mid June. 

Mike has been busy fixing up the yard and creating gardens. I hate weeding so I am always happy to do container gardening while Mike has been steady clearing grass from various places in front of the house. 

It has been a pleasant adjustment making plans with Mike. I was so used to making all decisions myself of course living alone you have to do that. Mike is a dreamer while I am more reserved. He has big plans for the home and yard. We have been steady chipping away at our wedding plans. I want everything paid for well in advance of the wedding. I am determined we will not carry any debt for the wedding nor go into debt for the wedding. 

I will finish up this disjointed piece and head back to unpacking. I hope you have a great weekend. Thanks to everyone who reads and follows my blog.

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